mourning over a friend who was never really a good friend is so fucking odd. like, maybe i shouldnt miss you but i do. because even though you treated me like shit and we probably dont agree on most things any- more i still miss whatever friendship we had. and sometimes you show up in my dreams and i immediat- ely know its a dream be- cause youre nice to me in a way you never were and we kissed and fucked and for a moment i wanted to believe it but i cant. 28-11-23