mourning over a friend
who was never really
a good friend is so
fucking odd. like, maybe
i shouldnt miss you but
i do. because even though
you treated me like shit
and we probably dont
agree on most things any-
more i still miss whatever
friendship we had. and
sometimes you show up in
my dreams and i immediat-
ely know its a dream be-
cause youre nice to me in
a way you never were and
we kissed and fucked and
for a moment i wanted to
believe it but i cant.

28-11-23