It's been a lifetime, and I still can feel her death
It crept up behind me, a promise that I never kept
As a child, swore that I would bare the burden
I would be the one to help her fall asleep
Ten years later, wasn't there
All I've got now is the distant memory
You set a life expectancy inside your head
Twenty years is just unreasonable, you'll settle with the silence
Is there any kind of pain like life's fragility?
It's a cosmic joke, a holy comedy
I've got hatred in my eyes
What kind of God lets loved ones die
Without giving them a way to say goodbye?
And even with the distance
I still feel your presence
Sleeping at the end of my bed
The subtle root of discontent
It's an ache I cling to, I hope I won't forget
But I don't wanna think about the day you didn't make it home
When the winter cold had seeped into your bones
I've got anger in my eyes
What kind of God lets lost dogs lie
Without giving them a way to say goodbye?
We never said goodbye
So this is it, no final words before you go
I had to hear it from 200 miles away
And in the absence of a dream
What would help me to believe?
If not sudden loss, then sudden proof of faith?
I've got mourning in my eyes
What kind of God lets loved ones die
Without giving them a way to say goodbye?
We never said goodbye
Gather 'round today, and let us put this beast to rest
We were always disillusioned, buried deep in our distress
In a deficit of knowledge we succumb to ignorance
Living in this nightmare on repeat
A funeral of failed history
I'm not saying that I'm hopeless
I'm just tired of hanging on
Watching everyone around me
Find their comfort in the fall
Spit bile and reconcile with a dark and sordid past
'cause I'm fraying at the seams in private
Security in a dream gone silent
Growing weary of patience
I never wanted this to end up in a cold complacence
I put my trust in a three-piece bet
And it's let me down again and again and again
So I'm not saying that I'm desperate
But I'm tired of staying strong
One more failure 'round the corner
I'm just barely hanging on
I know it shouldn't be such an easy thing
To strike a match and see wisdom in the flames
But hindsight's weathered, true, and tested
While our future's laid to waste
Betray me
Lead each other to the slaughter
Hand on heart, we're torn asunder
Pledging fealty to this failure of a flag
Half of me believes that nothing's set in stone
But I'm scared enough to notice that the flames engulf my home