Pre-2020s

Eagle Beyond the Clouds

He's like an eagle beyond the clouds

A fierce hunter of my imperfections

Untamed, and untouched by humanities hands

A free bird, caught in my noose

My words evade, but there is no melody

My body persuades, but there is no movement

My mind arrays, but there is no reaction

And the matchmaker has pushed me into his arms

For she has no remorse

Is this some kind of sick game?

Have I disturbed the wrong demon?

Or am I simply the serpent,

Here to delude young men into eating the forbidden fruit

He's like an eagle beyond the clouds

A fierce hunter of my imperfections

Should I entangle this eagle with my chains, forged of burden?

Or should I let him soar, far beyond the reach of my agony

Without me, to halve his heart

// written on 9 september 2019 🞟

clay dolls

1 Once, years ago
2 I found what I know
3 now as a life inside hell

4 And though I still hear
5 the shrieks after fear,
6 the company is mostly fine

7 My mother, had gone.
8 My father, withdrawn.
9 And me, an animated husk

10 Through my despair
11 the one fallen their
12 was one, broken clay doll

13 His skin; cracked & bled
14 Its story, unread
15 had given his last life to me

16 For all of those days
17 Lost in a haze
18 Id think of the delicate paint

19 Once my skin broke
20 Or my father awoke
21 Or I simply couldn't escape

22 The marionette
23 Had given my yet
24 Just one reason for life

25 With my father down to sleep
26 And my mind, young and naive
27 I took to his "secret place"

28 When the door went askew,
29 My eyes darted through
30 And saw a plethora of clay

31 Thousands of dolls
32 Lining the walls
33 Flooding the room in their

34 Each of their kin
35 Made of a sin
36 Stood, and lingered my way

37 My mind disarrayed
38 My body, still stayed
39 silent, quiet, no sound

40 Once, years ago
41 I found what I know
42 Now, as a life inside hell

43 And though I still hear
44 The shrieks of my fear
45 The company is mostly fine.

// written on 2 september 2019 🞟 high school creative writing class assignment